Sunday, August 15, 2010

For Myself (more than anyone else)

In two minutes I am officially done with summer vacation. For some reason, I feel more hesitant than usual about this fact. I am not ready to go back. I'm not ready to have the students return to my classroom. I keep having nightmares about unruly classes and a voice that cannot be heard. I think it is fear of the unknown sinking in--unknown students, unknown material. I'm teaching an entirely new to me subject this year, which is much like being a new teacher again when it comes to developing curriculum.

But somewhere in my mind I keep thinking, knowing that this will all be fine. My nightmares are merely nightmares. I have a teaching voice--the same one that inadvertently turns heads in public places. I've been down this road many times. And yet, once again, I feel a sense of dread.

And so, for me at this exact moment in time, a reminder:

"Ultimately, we know deeply that
the other side of every fear is freedom."
~ Marilyn Ferguson

And away we go!


Sephalo said...

I know you'll be fantastic! If any of those punk-teenagers gives you any 'em lol

Thank you for being a teacher

Libby said...

Arrrg for you. Although I know you'll do a great job with all of the unknowns. Good luck.

P.S. What's the new subject?

Stephanie said...

Good luck to you, my friend!

Wendy said...

You'll Rock the 10th grade Honor students and the rest of 'em too. Your teacher voice really is perfect for it! :) Love ya.

Jen said...

I'm glad for the reassuring end to this post, because I was afraid at first that you were having premonitions and that Tom Marvolo Riddle would be in your class! You are awesome.

Amber said...

You go girl! Have a great year! "You can do it, Brookie!"

Lildonbro said...

Who knew teachers get nervous too...I never thought about that before.

I hope all went well! You'll do great this year!

Anonymous said...

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